Although the scars of yesterday, remain...

So yea, nothing really new. Just getting ready to finish up here and idk go home?

MY 4/20 was quite uneventful, played babysitter for a few friends who never smoked/done shrooms before. it was quite lulz. I was the designated driver and made sure no one got themselves killed during thier trips. Needless to say i still indulged in a few joints. A little bummed i couldnt have any shrooms though.

A good friend of mine on RO introduced me to a friend of his a while back. Like, a month or so ago? Anyway needless to say we started slowly chatting with eachother and moved up to phone calls. 4/20 i actually visited/hungout with him. I was in the area anyway ( i had to go home this 4/20 he literally lives 15 minutes north of me). so granted i was awkward at first but i actually had fun. We have similar tastes in games and music, hes fit, tall, spanish, from the UK, has the adorable british accent.

back the fuck up, did i just hit the jackpot? British accent, tall, athletic, the sweetest person ever? I think I just did <3

He actually told me that he likes me today, however i want to wait a little longer before i make any sort of decision on that caliber. Based on how it goes when im actually home for the summer is gonna be the defining factor. There is a huge difference for when im here at school, living an independent life away from my overbearing mother, and when im at home with my mom up my ass every 30 or so minutes and shes very nosey too, which i really dislike...

I love how things start drastically turning around towards summer. However, I'm not holding my breath

So this spring break was one to be remembered :3.

Leaving off from tuesday was it? I fucking forgot. Regardless the rest of my week was filled with work, booze, joints, and good company. I really needed that week tbh, my depression was slowly going down a path i never want to cross again [2009 part 2 x.x] but this week dragged me out of that downward path... thank god.

So i basically have two months left until i graduate with my BA... time fucking flew out the window, holy fuck x.x I am about to get started on writing out graduate school applications to three schools: Rowan, Rutgers and Monmouth Universities. Thankfully FAFSA is giving me a pretty big loan, but i honestly dont know where i want to go to school this time around, do i want to live on campus again to avoid my overprotective and nosy mother? to stay close to home to actually have time to hang out with my friends again and reconnect? (I'm leaning towards the get the hell out of my house option, or even the state, i like traveling :3!) But alas, it is the end of this chapter in my life.

Now on to other things...
Hunger Games is amazing, i recommend it to everyone, especially the book series <3
Mirai Nikki and Persona 4 are fast approaching their end Q_Q
Currently watching Durarara! cause i can never seem to catch it on adult swim anymore -.-

Now excuse me as i roll another blunt and watch the wind take the newly grown leaves off their branches.

I felt this post was necessary.
I know, double post, sue me.

The drugs begin to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pound softer
You won't try to save me!
You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate!

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Please dont ask why all of a sudden I'm spilling my guts. It's been pent up for a good week or so and I felt the need to let it out of my system. I like to think of it as therapy. :3